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from the other siiiide ! *obviously singing Adele's new song*

Can't believe I finally decided to start a new blog! I mean, I'm 22, it's about time I bid farewell to my old blog which was full of crap(read : teen angst, crush/boy-drama, celebrity crushes) . Cut me some slack! Those posts were from my very immature 11 to 21 year old self :p OMG?! 10 yearrssss.

zulaihshereen.blogspot.com (2005-2015)

I've change my blog link a few times and I remembered once it was "pinkprincess.blogspot.com". Seriously? *smacks forehead* But i'm never ever gonna delete that blog ! Man, my teenage memories have to be kept somewhere, right ?

Anyways, I was facetime-ing with my nephews just now and then I suddenly thought of blogging. About them, obviously :D

I'm currently missing them so much! I miss them everyday, to be honest. Just on some days I miss them a lil bit more than usual. Ever since 12.06.12, I've become an overly attached Auntie. Hah hah. I mean growing up I've always loved babies, I used to go my neighbor's house just to play with their babies. Yes, the word is play. Because all I do with babies(my nephews, included) are just to play with them. Or 'watch over' them, rather than taking care of them. Up until now I don't clean their poo, bathe them, or even "bancuh their susu". I think I've only done that once -_- So i'm no Mommy Material lah.

My friend once asked me, "So bila nak kahwin?". Firstly, that was a really random question. But we talked about it still. And I just laughed it off because at that time, if I could remember clearly, I said that I didn't wanna get married, or not too soon at least. Because I really do feel like not wanting to get married sometimes! But, I have to be honest though, I do fantasize on beautiful weddings(with loads and loads of fresh flowers) once in a while... But that's it, I fantasize on WEDDINGS, not MARRIAGE! It's not because I've become "tawar hati" or whatever shit people who've been in love would feel like once they've got their hearts broken, because, I've never been in love. Hah hah. But witnessing some relationships over the years just really scare the shit out of me. I'm not talking about boyfriend/girlfriend. I'm talking about married couple. I'm afraid of a broken relationship.

...wait, why am I talking about myself again..??

Back to the topic!!

So when I told that to my friend, he said, is it because I already have nephews, so they could be my pengganti ? Honestly I've never thought of that ! As in, if i'm not destined to get married, my nephews can be the "pengganti" to my own kids. *insert laughing + crying emoji here* Wow, that made me think though. Well, that could be true. I don't know why but I just really love my nephews and I don't mind spoiling them with gifts every now and then. I am quite calculative when buying stuffs for myself, but when I see something cute for my nephews I would just buy it without thinking twice. I think it's pretty normal for Aunties and Uncles to spoil their nephews and nieces more than their parents, no ?

Some people find it annoying, the obsessiveness I have towards my nephews. I don't understand why though..? Haha okay okay maybe it's because of the excessive pics and videos on instagram, twitter etc.. I'm sorry I just couldn't help it sometimes ! I guess it's partly because I've never had a younger sibling. So the minute I became and Aunt I just really love them unconditionally. Chehh. But I'm glad i'm not the only ones!! My close friends, Syawal and Adilah are overly attached aunties too. Every-time we meet up, we would end up talking about our nephews/nieces. Obsessed much ?

I guess that's it for the first post full of rants (as usual). I'm hungry !